FUn fun fun fun

It is a good day. Having fun. Lots of fun. Bye. Write later.

fake smile eh dho

I thiik it is a fake smile. Look at the colour of those teeth. Acheeeedi. He is a smart man though. Congrats and thanks.

Call for help

Are there any tech guys around there? If so i need some advice. Is this a genuine and good browser to use. ANd what is a tor circuitconnection. Any advice would be highly appreciated.

Welcome to the official Torpark homepage. Torpark is a program which allows you to surf the internet anonymously. Download Torpark and put it on a USB Flash keychain. Plug it into any internet terminal whether at home, school, work, or in public. Torpark will launch a Tor circuit connection, which creates an encrypted tunnel from your computer indirectly to a Tor exit computer, allowing you to surf the internet anonymously. How much does Torpark cost? IT'S FREE.

Food is not tasty

Today i hurt someones feelings and i felt terrible and horrible about it for the rest of the day. I mean it was sweet of her to make lunchfor us all but if it wasnt good, how can i say it did. She had a bit of a cry. Away from us all in the bedroom. I know she did. Her eyes were all red when she came back to join us. sniff..sniff..Poor girl. I didnt know how to rectify what i did. Still feeling bad about it. I did say sorry. She knows that i did mean it and that it is just me who went all cranky. I know i cant neutralize the effect it had after i said what i said. What is done is done. Still feeling quiet dreadful about it.

I have to tell about my cat

I once had a cat. A white fluffy sweet heart. Something went wrong and we are no longer together. Now i am after a black one even when i know that it cant cant be mine nevrtheless determined to make it mine. Wish me luck sweeeties. Yes. I am talking about a CAT. hmmmm...

magusspeaks blogged about enlightenment. I wasnt sure what maguss was talking about until i read the whole thing. Its true to an extent what magus has said, i think. I wrote the following comment:

magusspeaks blogged about enlightenment. I wasnt sure what maguss was talking about until i read the whole thing. Its true to an extent what magus has said, i think. I wrote the following comment:

.. . . in the same context.
I have been thinking about what "normal" means as well. I mean what makes a person normal Does normal mean that you are perfectIs there such a person known as a perfect being Is there such a thing called abnormal I think we all are abnormal beings. I am in with you to be known as abnormal.

I did get a few sleep last night. So i might not be making any sense.

This is what mugusspeaks wroke:

ENLIGHTENMENT

I NEVER UNDERSTOOD FULLY THE MEANING OF ENLIGHTENMENT.I MEAN WHAT ALL CHAGES WILL TAKE PLACE IN A PERSON AFTER HE BECOMES AN ENLIGHTENED PERSON.WILL HE BE FREE OF ALL THE WOLRDLY WORRIES?WILL HE NEVER GET ANGRY AT ANYONE, EVEN IF THAT PERSON IS THE NASTIEST PERSON ALIVE.I KNOW PEOPLE SAY THAT AFTER ENLIGHTENMENT,ONE WILL FEEL PEACEFUL.BUT I JUST WANT TO KNOW HOW IS IT POSSIBLE.TO BE FREE OF ALL HUMAN EMOTIONS EVEN IF ITS NEGATIVE EMOTIONS.OR IS IT A STAGE OF INSANITY?WELL,SUCH AN INSANITY IS BETTER THAN BEING NORMAL.BECAUSE FEELING GOOD ABOUT ONESELF IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN BEING NORMAL.I CANT WAIT TO BE ABNORMAL IN THAT CONTEXT.

YAY!!!! Got 2 months off

Few people know what stress can make to you. Its good to know that i am not the only one out there feeling the same. Today, i asked my employer if i can get Dec off and as all bosses she went on rambling about christmas holidays and shortness of staff. With a few sad looks and pleadings and persuasion, in the end she agreed that if i work during christmas, i wll get 2 months hols. Yay.I might post a few pics.

First i have to decide where to go, now that i know i will get time off. Any ideas? Fiji sounds like a good option. I just want to be alone and relax and sooth my mind.

Want to go on a holiday badly

So stressed out right now. Somehow I’ve managed to avoid a full blown panic attack. My leg won’t stop shaking. Not to mention all the stress pimples. I am quite the pretty picture right now.

Need a break. Waant to go some where far. Far from here. Some where different. For a big big holiday. I always have been telling myself that i will go on hols sooon. Now i have made up my mind. I am definitely going this December. As Steven Tyler has said ,"And the things that come to those that wait may be the things left by those that got there first." I dont want to miss my holiday anymore. Ah ah no no.

Phew! Its all done

Its tuesday and it is a beautifully sunny day here today, an early spring reprieve, and I spent all night and a half of todays daytime hunched over doing some paper work . Groan. I hated that so much. I’m not good with that stuff, but I'm stubborn and independent, and I want to do it. LOL I rarely get in bad moods, but there’s nothing like sleazy paper stuff to make me grumpy and foul-mouthed. Still, it’s done now, and my reward is a rather LARGE glass of red. Real Life took over, and let's just say I’m looking forward to a smoother week and "week-end" ahead. Here’s to it. ;-)

note:

A study suggests the growth of cervical and womb cancers may be fuelled by a hormone-like molecule in semen. Read more here: BBC NEWS. Therefore I conclude that semen is haram.:)

Also.. please sign this petition urging Iran to stop stoning women. It takes only 3 minutes. :)

All problems solved

All my existing problems solved. For the time being atleast. I am sure theres more to come and they are on their way. I sense it, feel it, and am ready to embrace it. Bring it on.

Early start

I am up early today. Had a good sleep. Slept the whole day to be honest. Some may be wondering why my sleeping pattern is so wiered. The reason is because i do shift work and some times i have to do night duty as well. Today i have to catch the first train (it is too expensive with the sky rocketing petrol prizes to drive and on top of that the parking in the city cost a mouthful) to go to work. I have exactly one hour to get ready. For all those who are curious about what i do..i will tell you all later. Bye bye for now.

nb: i just realised that it is the 11th of sep. so soon the time flies by. Its been 5 years since the world was rocked by the images of the 2 planes crashing in to the WTC. My mY. I still can remember the shock i was in when i first saw those images and the events following that has not been any comforting either. Its getting late. bye one more time.

could not sleep

hi again

Went to bed in the thought that i will fall asleep rather easily as i was very tired. Couldnt sleep. So here i am saying "hi's" and all. As i am intersted in the topic of feminism, i was reading and going through all feminist websites in the hope that some reading will make me sleepy again. While reading through all sorts of stuff i found this georgeous entry in a weblog. This was so sweet that i couldnt resist myself in putting it here and letting others know about it.

What keeps you from being Happy?

Please help others gain the same knowledge you are about to read by reposting. Please do not keep this to yourself. PLEASE try not to put your names on this so others will feel free to repost it. The author is not as important as the message! Thank you!

What prevents us from being happy?

I believe the answer is quite simple. Every person on this planet who is not happy are all suffering from one emotion. It is the cause of all wars, racism, crime, and hate. What a powerful emotion it must be to be responsible for all of that negativity. That emotion is fear and it is affecting you in ways you may not even be aware of at the moment. Fear of failure, fear of being alone, and fear of what people will think. Have you stopped and looked at the people you are afraid might judge you? Are their lives in a place where you would like to someday be? If not, then why are you concerned with their opinion? They will judge you out of envy and ignorance. They see you succeed and they want that for themselves. But they do not want to take action to succeed. They will say you are lucky, or spoon fed, or more attractive. They will die with a million excuses as to why their life didn't turn out like yours... but they are just excuses. I would much rather die with reasons why my life was great instead of excuses why my life was not.

If you take a chance what is the worse that can happen to you? You fail. Sure there are a bunch of other details but ultimately the thing you remember is the feeling of failure. Do you know what failure is? It is feedback. You take action and the Universe gives you feedback. Failure implies the end of your efforts. To never try is to truly fail. Everything that happens to you in life whether you want to call it luck, tragedy, or failure is merely a lesson. You are the person you see today because of your experiences. You cannot know something without having experienced it first hand. So if you want to be something different but are afraid to take a chance you will never change. Positive thinking, affirmations, and prayers will not change your life without action. Without action those are just words created by man formed into a nice little phrase. You have to show the Universe your intentions.

Would you like to learn there is nothing to fear? How powerful would you be if you realized there was nothing to fear? What would you change? What is shaping your life today? Your life today is the outcome of your thinking and beliefs up to this point. What are beliefs?

Our parents beliefs passed down + our life experiences + our current level or awareness

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Beliefs

So basically how we view our past is what shapes our lives today. What is your current level of awareness? How are your beliefs affecting your life?

Beliefs

We believe what our parents taught us which was passed down by their parents and so on and so on. Does that mean we are destined to live out our lives with these beliefs? You were taught most of your beliefs when you were a sponge with no judgment. You probably thought the tooth fairy existed and that babies came from storks. The fact that Santa was not real did not make him any less real to you as a child. When your parents told you he was not real you probably cried but your belief changed. Beliefs are not hard coded. As you got older and people started to lie to you more frequently you began to form judgment. Now you didn't believe everything you were told. You formed your own opinion based on past experiences. This became a shield to protect you from hurting or being mislead. It became part of your toolkit for survival. You became afraid of the hurt associated with dishonesty and betrayal. So you began forming beliefs to shelter you from pain. Do you have beliefs that aid you in survival but are self defeating?

Awareness

What we focus on becomes reality. For example, Eric is in the market for a new automobile. He is shopping around and a certain model catches his eye. He decides to purchase it. It is perfect for him and he has never really seen them on the road so it is not too common. Curious thing though as Eric was driving his new automobile he notices that specific model several times over the next few days. Were there less cars of that model on the road before his purchase? No. Eric was simply not aware of them. When his focus shifted he became aware of that specific model all around him. Using that example do you focus on more negative aspects of life or more positive aspects of life? If you focus on negative aspects I bet you can guess what you notice more in the world around you? Ever see those happy people that always seem like they are on something. What do you think they are focusing on? Stop for a second and notice your breathing or your heartbeat. Did you heart just start beating or did you simply just shift your awareness.

Synchronicity

Have you noticed when two people walk they tend to synchronize their steps. Go to a local mall and just observe. Have you ever noticed when you pass someone they often speed up to stay right next to you. I am not referring to the people who are being difficult but the people who gradually sync with you like when driving on a freeway long distances. Synchronicity is common in all things. Through the use of binaural beats scientists have learned that our brain will sync with frequencies when they are noticed by the brain. So do we sync with thoughts as well? After all thoughts are just frequencies. Have you noticed in the presence of some people you cannot help but feel happy or excited? When you are around negative people do you notice that you might be more negative? Do you act one way around certain friends and act completely different around others? We sync with our environment. So what can you do? Do you hide somewhere and avoid your friends who are always negative? No. Change your perception. Know that those people are just experiencing life through a set of filters you do not have. Love everyone even the nasty people. The nasty people do not know how powerful they are and they live life as a victim. They are not aware they are an infinite being of love and compassion. They live life as if their past or present defines them. These people are doing the best they can with the resources they have available. Be aware of the negative but do not sync with it. Do not hate. Do not judge. Do not criticize. For you will surely sync with those feelings.

Negativity

It is impossible to avoid negativity in this day and age. You can however choose not to react to it. Control your emotions. Every person in your life that troubles you is testing you. The person you are irritated by most is your best teacher. Complaining, whining, and placing blame does not help solve anything and stifles your personal and spiritual growth. Every challenge you face whether big or small should be viewed as a challenge. For without challenge we would not grow. Harboring negative thoughts and feelings for others makes your body ill. It pollutes the mind. It clouds your judgment. People who are negative are neither happy nor successful. After all the definition of success is happiness. You can be rich with money but poor in happiness. You see that all the time in Hollywood.

Distractions

Why do you think fads and trends exist? They are distractions. People who meditate are usually successful and happy. But it requires you to sit still and do nothing for a period of time. Meditation for some is to be without distraction. Western culture is all about distraction. Ask yourself this. Are you happy? What distractions do you have that prevent you from being happy? People run from this question and stay distracted. They settle in relationships that do not make them happy and they end up settling in every aspect of their life. They stay distracted until the day they die with mountains of regret. For some security even if negative is better than pursuing happiness since there is no guarantee. Addiction is a distraction. Some people are so afraid to pursue their happiness they would rather die an addict. It is not that hard to attain a state of happiness but people are afraid they might not find it. Addiction becomes an excuse for inexcusable behavior and ultimately a reason why their life isn't turning out right. Is it that hard to take control of your life and be happy? Addiction is not limited to drugs. Lust, love, and anger are addictive. The same neural receptors for love are shared with chocolate and heroin!

The Brain

What an amazing tool we all possess though very few use it to its full potential. How very little most people know about the brain. The subconscious mind processes about 40 million bits of information every second. It is responsible for monitoring the operations of the body, motor functions, and literal thinking. The subconscious is habitual and timeless. It only understands present time. It also stores our past experiences, attitudes, values, and beliefs. The conscious mind on the other hand is time bound in other words either past or future. The conscious mind is responsible for volition and abstract thinking. The conscious mind can only process about 200 bits per second. Our subconscious mind filters out most of our surroundings since the conscious mind is so limited in its processing capabilities. So if we use the example above you do not notice that specific car model because the subconscious mind filters it out. When you give attention to something the subconscious mind then sets a filter to notice it and does not filter it out. Do you now understand why affirmations, prayers, and positive thinking exist? If you give attention to positive and growth related ideas what will the subconscious make you aware of?

Fight or Flight a.k.a. Acute Stress Response

You probably learned about fight or flight while in school. Walter Cannon in 1929 described it as animals react to threats with a general discharge of the sympathetic nervous system, priming the animal for fighting or fleeing. Fast forward nearly 100 years and biologists have improved upon this simplistic theory. The visceral cavity is home to all our major organs. When the body is presented with a threatening situation the adrenal glands will release a hormone that will squeeze the blood vessels in the viscera. The squeezing of these vessels sends the blood from the viscera to the limbs. If you are running from a lion your muscles need the blood to get you to safety. When the blood is rerouted from the viscera things like your immune system are weakened. No need for fighting a cold when a lion is chasing you. In addition to the viscera being affected the blood in the forebrain is routed to the hind brain. You are more likely to need reflex and coordination more so than the ability to solve mathematical problems. In biology there are three states a cell can be in growth, neutral or protection. A growth state in which the viscera and fore brain are being supplied with blood properly. A protection state where the blood is being rerouted from the viscera to the limbs and hind brain. When you are in a stressful situation you are less intelligent. Imagine being in a constant state of protection. Have you ever noticed that people who are always stressed out fall victim to illness more often that those that are not stressed out? It is not magic or that the person has better genes. It is simple science. Love has been proven to be beneficial to a child's growth and development more so than even nutrients. A child who is loved will grow more than a child who has proper nutrition but is neglected. You cannot be in a state of growth and be in a state of protection at the same time. What state do you live in?

FEAR Is A Tool

Everywhere you look on television, in newspapers, and on the Internet there is a reoccurring theme. FEAR! It is a tool to enslave people. Don't you find it odd that science has proven we are energy bodies and that energy cannot be created or destroyed but most people live in fear of dying? When Theodosius converted to Christianity and declared it the only valid religion of the state during the Roman Empire do you think it was out of love for the people? He declared one religion official over all others. Is that an empowering belief for humanity? You minimize others who do not share your beliefs. You break the communication with your fellow man and judge all others. It makes you skeptical about others based on their beliefs but worse yet it makes you fear death. It puts you in a constant state of fight or flight. Who benefits from the fear campaign taking place in the media? Who benefits from making you afraid of death? The masses are enslaved by fear and biology proves we are getting sicker and less intelligent as a result.

Genes DO NOT Control Biology

The human genome project was supposed to give us a blueprint of the human body. The scientists thought they would have blueprints to make any organ. What they found out is only 1/5 of the genes that were required based on their assumptions were there. We also found out the Bonobo Chimpanzee is a 98% match to human DNA. Oops... :) Not all was lost though we also learned that genes do not control biology. Your perception of the environment controls your biology not your genes. How do you perceive your environment?

The Power of Intent

Dr. Emaru Emoto has discovered that our intention can alter the physical properties of water. The human body is over 70% water and our brain is over 80% water. If our thoughts affect water how do they affect our physical bodies or more importantly our brain? Dr. William A. Tiller has discovered that our intention can alter matter. Now listen to that voice in your head. Is it spewing positive and productive thoughts or is it dwelling in the past which is gone forever. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow will never get here because it becomes today. Today is the only moment in time that is important. What are you intentions?

What Is Real?

We are made up of energy. Energy cannot be created or destroyed. Everything is made of energy. Wait... this desk I am sitting at is hard and made of wood not energy. Actually the desk is made up of billions of atoms which are not solid. Your intent that it is solid keeps it solid. If you neglect something over time it starts to falls apart. Your neglect for that object and lack of intention and focus makes the object break down. You literally create everything you see around you. When science started to study sub atomic particles they discovered that the deeper they delve the less and less was there. Matter is just vibrating energy. Our thoughts are frequencies. A study using athletes running a race who were hooked up to EEG machines produced specific and unique brainwave patterns. The second part of the study was to hook these same athletes up to the EEG and have them visualize the same race. The same brain patterns were measured when the person was seated in a chair just visualizing the race. Our brain does not know the difference between what we see and what we think. What do you spend most of your time thinking about?

Ok, Ok I get it.. I need to change. But I don't know how.

Do you not see how powerful you are? You make your eyes the color they are, beat your heart, and digest your food all without any knowledge on how you do it. Every human wants one thing. Peace. However they can only understand what they are aware of. Why do you think addicts and people that hate are never content? Because they really seek peace but are so lost they cannot find it. When you look at a person don't see their physical body. That is temporary. It will someday die. See them as an infinite being with a wise spirit fighting to get their human on the right path :) Seems silly but it helps when dealing with the less likeable among us :)

What Can I Do?

1. Meditate.

Meditation can do a lot to put you on the right path far more that anything I have encountered. Stillness of the mind is like bliss. Until you experience it for yourself you cannot grasp how important this stillness is.

2. Forgive.

3. Stay curious and adventurous.

Make everyday, every person, and every task an exciting experience. We learn from our experiences. Seek out knowledge and share with others. To be happy is to be in growth. Find the good in everything. Live life everyday like it is your first day on earth. To seek knowledge is to be in a continuous state of growth. To settle and not seek knowledge stifles your personal and spiritual growth.

4. Learn to allow.

Allow others to be who they are. Allowing others to be will make you more patient and understanding of others. Allow people to give to you.

5. Love

Most important of all is to love all life. Love is the most powerful force in a child's development. Love can heal hearts and minds. To love is to grow. Love can change the world. Literally!

M is here

It was an exciting day. I met my long time friend M who is here for a holiday. It has been three days since he arrived and i am not finding much time to do anything else other than hanging around with him. He is not staying long. Only a week. That is a pity. Tired to write more. Good night sweeties.

Taccos and Tortillas

Yes. I am talking about those delicious Mexican food. I have been going to this Mexican restaurant called MEXICAN and its happening quiet often these days, and the taste is just so nice. My favourite is the tortillas. I have to admit that i am getting quiet addicted to this stuff. mmmm..yummy yum yum.

Steve Irwin died today

My favourite naturalist and world conservationist Steve Irwin (also known as the famous crocodile hunter) passed away today from a sting injury to his heart. He was diving when the freak accident happened. He was born here in Melbourne and the whole Melbourne and Australia is mourning today. Through his dedication in conservation and love of nature, he inspired many to respect the environment they live in. The world is going to miss a great man dearly, who has touched so many of our lives. My heartfelt condolences to his family. sniff ..sniff...:(

lazy day

Messymissy had a lazy day. Slept till 4:00 pm ...ate dinner and went back to sleep...and here i am again. Thinking of watching a dvd. Messymissy has tomorrow off...so nothing to worry.

missy want to blog

Hi there all those mischievous, crazy, curious, willing, on lookers, readers and fellow bloggers. Here i come.